About me

Ouh.... I forgot to mention about myself.
I was born chinese 27 years ago, in a town In Indonesia (if you don't know, you can look in the map, it is right above Australia), called Pontianak, In Borneo Island. What a chinese doing in a tropical island of Indonesia you asked? Let's see, my grandparents ran away from the chinese dictator regime (Chairman MAO, or Mao Ze Dong) to avoid being starved to death during the second world war. SO they took a month trip by ship to south east asia, and ended up in the Island Borneo in Indonesia (Imagine eat, bath, and poop in the same place). wew... what were they thinking?, I'd rather die in China.
Now, I've been working in a bank as a loan officer for 3,5 years now. And still waiting for my promotion that has not yet come. -_-'.
Currently working In Jakarta (the capital), which is located from a different island from Borneo far away from home, by myself.
Ouh, I forgot to mention, as you can read above, I was born in a town named Pontianak, In local languange it means, female ghost. I don't know why the heck did they named a town after an evil scary ghost in folk tales. Pontianak, is a ghost of a female raped and murdered during pregnancy, and she has been wandering looking for his child ever since. hahahahha....
Back to me, I am an introvert without much going on in my life. very few friends, but luckily I am quite good at starting relationship, but I don't got what it takes to maintain one though. So in the end I always find myself back being miserable and desperate.
Dreamed of becoming an entrepreneur sometime in the future, but everytime trying to start a business, I failed miserably. So to wrap it up. My life is miserable. But what can I do, right? Life must goes on. Darn.... If not because I am such a coward I would have ended my life, and suicide with what dignity left in me. I am christian, and the punishment for suicide according to the bible, is definitely hell. So ofcourse I don't want suffer worse faith in the next life. Darn.....
So everyone, I don't need any symphaty, I just need to write, cause I am miserable and don't have a friend to share my miserability, my last option is to write. Which I think is not a really bad idea.